15th day of April, a day of waiting. Warm with a bright sun. I moved the boat to the Bolder Park wall on the northeast side of the harbor to get more exposure to people. Thanks Harley for the use of your dock while I waited for the ice to move on.
0358, on the 16th day of April, 2009 the Cap’n Lem is moored portside to the wall at the northwest end of Grand Marais, MN. My eyes open. I get up. Sleep on the boat is not hard. It is sound, restful and delicious, but when my eyes open, I have to get up no matter what time of morning. It is as much a part of me at this age as my long gray hair and my driftwood face.
So what does a sailor do at 4 o’clock in the morning tied to the wharf? Well, this sailor drinks coffee, (Folgers Instant: the finest kind) writes in his log and reads.
My fascination with the shipwrecks of the Great Getchee Gummee grows with each crossing. I know so little about this inland sea but I’m learning and my respect grows and grows. I read words like “lost with all hands”, “a strange disappearance” “vanished”, and “a heart breaking disaster” and they melt from the pages into my imagination. Steel ships, wooden ships, sail, steam or motor. It doesn’t matter. When the Lake was angry with wind and snow, men and women died. I’m reminded to caution myself once again of the sea’s magnificent indifference and how it hasn’t the capacity to care whether I live on its surface or die under its waves. After all, it is merely water. Water, the great giver and sustainer and taker of life. It is inanimate. It only seems to have the personality my imagination gives to it. It only seems to direct its anger at man. But in the end analysis, it is only water doing what waters do. And me? I’m an intruder testing my wits and cunning against cold and moody nature. On the Lake or the ocean, the only thing separation me from a watery death is the integrity of the hull of the wonderful little ship I call the Cap’n Lem. (Take care of your boat, Tommy. Take care of your boat!)
Read enough, write enough and dawn will come. The imagination that puts me at the helm of the LEAFIELD as it vanishes in the Great Storm of November 9th 1913 west of Isle Royale gives way to the reality of light and a calm beautiful day, one more day for the ice to melt, one more day to prepare.
There are worse things than the danger of shipwreck and drowning to me. The danger of doing nothing, of giving up and letting dreams die. These things scare me more than anything the sea has to offer. It would be living death to sit by the fireplace safe and warm thinking of what I might have done. So at age 63 I set sail aboard the Cap’n Lem. After all I’m younger now than I will ever be again. So “Come on Lake! Come on Ocean! You’re a brute for sure, but you are a dumb brute and I will trick you into allowing me across for I am a Master Mariner and I have honed my craft for 43 years just to get ready for this day.” (Yet, in my heart I know I will ever remain a sea fearing man.)